I've been having a hard time thinking of myself as "just the Blockbuster girl", who isn't going to school and who has to wait until her husband is done with school to even think of moving on with her own schooling. What a terrible way to think! So I've been trying to think more positively about my situation, but really had a wake up call when Drew told me what he tells his co-workers who ask what my plans are. He tells them that I am working right now to help support us until he's out of school, that I'd like to get at least an Associate Degree, but that our goal, once we have a family, is for me to stay at home with our children while he works. I obviously knew that was our goal, but I had a hard time thinking of it in that way. Thanks Drew!
Another "random realization" recently was while I was babysitting 3 beautiful little girls from church while their mom, Tammy Capone, was out. It was an all-day event, and I was totally excited about hanging out with these great little girls! Kate (5), Lauren (3), and Annie (16 months) and I were having fun inside until Lauren suggested that we play outside. So we put on shoes and went out to play with scooters and chalk. Here goes... Baby Annie wants to play with chalk. She was in such a good mood and the other girls were playing with the sidewalk chalk, so it wasn't fair at all to not let Annie have fun just because she'd get dirty. WHOA! Back up a minute... I had just realized that it's way more important for her to be happy than to be clean. "Go ahead, make a mess. If it makes her happy, let her get dirty; she can always be cleaned up afterward." That was such a great thing to realize, especially for the future. It's not as important to be clean as it is for a child to be happy. It was easy enough, when we went inside, I let her eat in that outfit (it was bound to get dirty from mac 'n cheese anyway), and then I changed her before putting her down for a nap. It was wonderful. She was so happy even when I put her down.
I hope to have more and more of these wake up moments to help me through certain points. I know I'll need them!
4 comments:
i like it! thanks for sharing your thoughts.
Oh, I still have these "ah-haa" moments nearly every day. I am so glad you are finding insight in the things around you. As far as supporting your husband goes, it is a long process, but life is long too. There will always be a way to work out your future goals, it just might not be right now:)
And if that fails, you can always just rack up the student loan debt:) Good times!
This is fun! Miss you! Isn't being the married the bomb??
I just love you. I just love hearing things like that. It makes me feel so lucky that I grew up with people like you
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